From the recording Phoenix
"Phoenix" is the result of a collaboration between Kate and a woman living in the USA who is struggling to come to terms with her sexuality, her feelings for another woman, and what it can mean to conform to society's expectations. They worked together for several sessions on Skype and then Kate recorded the song in the studio with her band, Adam Popowitz, Toby Peter and Richard Brown. Kate plays the acoustic guitar and sings the vocals.To find out more about Kate's collaborative songwriting service, go to the dashboard of this website and click on Our Lives in Song.
I’ve been doing a lot of running through my lifeRunning from them, running from myself, running from my truthI’ve been hiding something inside of me And my foot’s on the gasFeels like I’m driving a thousand miles too fastAnd now I’m just running on empty
See, over the years, I’ve been making listsI gotta do this, gotta do thatGet things done and prove I’m someoneI go to college, get good grades and graduateFind a man, land a job and start a familyCuz, that’s what they expect of meNow, I’m tired of pretending and in the endThere’s nowhere to go when I feel boxed in and split in two I can’t seem to find a way to say itI open my mouth but nothing comes outExcept some sweet smiling southern talkBut that’s not really who I am
And, I remember how it felt when I first crossed that lineHow it felt to redefine myself and come clean in my own mindWe were listening to “Cannonball” and I still recall all I wanted Was to kiss her, we were just sixteenBut that wasn’t exactly on my listBridgeSince then, I feel like I’ve been dying except something’s coming aliveAnd now I’m standing here, my feet are on the edgeI’m looking out across the abyss and I see your face in the distanceBut the hardest step is taking that leap of faithAnd this whole thing might go up in flamesBut I’m hoping that you’ll wait for meCuz from these ruins baby, I’m going to riseAnd when I breatheWill I find peace?And if I’m tender and I’m toughIs that good enough?Am I good enough?
So, I’m done with running, I’m done with checking my listI’m giving it all up to chance with a whispered prayer and a touch of riskAnd I keep stoking this fire that’s burning inside me for youKnowing that on some morning so sublimeI’ll be waking up with your body next to mineYour body next to mine